heart to heart

hye diary..nak citer about someone.yes.about man again.mesti korang pelik kan..mana satu nak kejap ni kejap tu. well, memang slalu cweety ambik risk berkapel and than its turns out to be not like i wanted. even tough i'm the one who become faithful but in the end, the relationship ending with sad story. for now i'm single. but i met this guy. well i can;t say just met cause he was my senior at my high school. he is one year older than me which is 21 years old. i get closed with him when we work together at AEON jusco. at first we always having a fight and argue about something and than one day, one incident that change everything. from that momment i looks at him in diffrent way. not a guy that always tease me but someone whose willing to do anything to help his friend. starts from that day, i getting close with him. unfrotunately he doesnt know that my heart starting pounding when i see him. well i dont want him to know my feeling. I THINK IT'S ONLY AN ORDINARY crush. well we got instant rush with someone right. and i think i didnt want the same thing happens to me. i dont want to be left by someone again. i want to be someone who is grateful to someone.
but than, we can't hide something right. i'm telling EMA(my bestfriend) about my crush on him. unexpectedly she told him, but not clearly told him..just like..."weyh, aku nak kenenkan ko dengan myra la"...i just like.."EMA....MALU la..."but still im happy.hehe...
however.. because of EMA, we got closer. but still keep that friend relationship. day after day, i get more connection with him and we become closer each day... after having outing wth him...which actually EMA called it as a date, he become more romantic and caring towards me. and i knew that he also have a same feeling that i had :). one think for sure he is really differ from any guys that i ever met before. he respecting woman even tough he nver had a relationship with anyone...
in which way he respecting?.. i'll explain here. as a ladies and a guys become closer, they will consider their self as a couple right even they didnt say anything about that. <---- some cases okeyh!. and they started to holding hand and hug their waist and do this and do that...as for him, he know that theres a boundaries between me and him and he respected that. and he know how to comfort me when im sad... but for now, we just get to know each other first. no rushing <--- he said. yes..he want to get serious about our relationship but for now just let it flow naturally....

this is grammatically error post ... sorry :)